Guilt

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Dear Madame Olivia:

I love your readings and the last really has me puzzled. You said I have something to my dark side that I’ve been hiding and that I’m going to have to basically tell the truth about. Do I need to feel guilty?

Wondering

Dear Wondering:

Please do not worry! Madame Olivia was merely alluding to the fullness of human personality. We are all bundles of motives and complexities, lightness and darkness. You have nothing to reproach yourself with and in fact it is clear that you have a scrupulous moral sense.
Rest easy and enjoy the new year!

Madame Olivia

My Husband Doesn’t Love Me

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Dear Madame Olivia:

I’m married to a guy (twenty years now) who treats me badly and never tells me he loves me and in fact tells me point blank he’s not in love with me and doesn’t desire me. I suspect he’s seeing someone else and wants to be with her but wants me to blow the whistle on the relationship so he won’t look bad. My heart really hurts. I hope you can help me.

Hurting Heart

Dear Hurting:

Your situation sounds painful and Madame Olivia’s heart breaks for you. The picture you paint of your husband is of somebody who is half out the door and of a relationship that is unsalvageable. The obvious question is why you stay with him. Madame Olivia suspects finances play a role and maybe love, too, but if he’s treating you this way you are being hurt. Divorce may be unthinkable right now but if you take some action you will begin on the road to empowerment.

You can do three things: first, document the way he treats you. This means keep a daily private journal and also confide in someone, not just your feelings but evidence you have, like his staying out late or overnight or whatever makes you suspicious, like particular things he says. The second thing you can do is figure out how you could live apart. This may start as just thinking about it and imagining it though it may well turn into a plan. Try to put together a fund to keep you afloat and also figure out who your allies are among friends and family and even co-workers. Hang on to your job and if you are between jobs, find one. Look around to see where you might live on your own. Thirdly, find a lawyer you can talk to, at legal aid if necessary. Some states have desertion laws that restrict your leaving with the kids (you don’t mention them but Madame Olivia suspects they exist), if such a thing looms as a possibility for you. Don’t confront your husband or move before you consult a lawyer or understand the relevant laws.

This all probably sounds terrifying. Take one tiny step at a time and get yourself on your feet so you are not at the mercy of this person. You are ultimately going to feel so good and so powerful. Stay calm, OK? Even if he’s nasty. Try not to let him get to you.

Madame Olivia sends you strength. You’re going to be OK. You just need to get in your own driver’s seat, one little step at a time.

All the best to you, dear Hurting.

~Madame Olivia

Dream Adventure

853Dear Madame Olivia:

I am a middle-aged woman with a burning desire to be a country singer, a real one, with recording contracts and everything. Though I have a decent but boring day job, I sing when I can and have gotten a few local gigs. People tell me I’m really good. Not to be immodest but I look pretty good for my age and have long blond hair so the externals are OK too. I’ve saved some money and my partner has been supportive so far but I think I really need to give this a go in Nashville. My friends tell me this is a midlife crisis and that it will pass and that I’m crazy to drop everything. Should I ignore them and make it happen?

Crazy

Dear Crazy:

Madame Olivia is going to be unequivocal here: YES, you should do it! And as soon as possible. You say you think you could swing it financially and that your partner has been supportive “so far.” Those are two crucial elements. Madame Olivia suggests putting a time and/or money limit on the enterprise for your own sense of safety. It will be essential to stay open with your partner and in touch throughout with periodic arranged meetups.

Professional help will be well worth it: a coach to navigate you through the waters in Nashville; someone to help you produce a fabulous demo CD; maybe even a stylist. Give yourself every advantage. You will of course do as much research and connecting as you can before you go. And don’t forget Madame Olivia’s famous dictum: one thing leads to another. Madame Olivia envisions you for example going to a small venue to hear somebody sing in Nashville and discovering that you’re sitting next to a record producer. This really does happen.

Your adventure may work out exactly according to your dreams and Madame Olivia ardently hopes so. It may also work out positively though not exactly as you dream. Or it may lead you down an undreamed-of path! Whatever happens, you can’t lose. You will have done this marvelous thing.

YES.

Sending you supreme energy and confidence!

Madame Olivia

Work

3127Dear Madame Olivia,

I love my work as a psychologist. My private work has decreased this summer. I applied for a part time hospice job and I am awaiting a formal offer. If this is where I am meant to be I gladly accept. If not, where and when? I hope you can tell me what I need to know.

Blessings,

In Need of Knowing

Dear In Need:

You wrote this some months ago and Madame Olivia has thought about your question for all this time, even though she didn’t manifest an answer. She sends her apologies but at the same time wants you to know she never forgot you or your question.

Here are some thoughts. First, if you got the job offer, congratulations to you. If that didn’t happen, then consider this: you say your private work decreased this summer. This suggests that your energies were not directed toward marketing and beating the bushes for new referrals. Madame Olivia wonders if this reflects a weariness, conscious or unconscious, with your practice. The hospice job sounds perfect for you and Madame Olivia hopes that the offer came through. If it did not, however, ask yourself how strongly hospice resonates with you. If the answer is “strongly,” then keep trying. Go to workshops and conferences on hospice. Explore online. Take a class. Subscribe to newsletters and blogs. It really doesn’t take a huge and steely resoluteness: merely following a lot of leads and putting yourself in the stream of hospice news and jobs can lead to wonderful results.

Sending very best wishes and warm and activating energy to you.

~Madame Olivia

My Writing Project

2891Dear Madame Olivia:
Can you please tell me whether the book I am writing is the right thing to be doing? It offers confirmation to humanity that an edition of an ancient myth is available in America today which will encourage all who are interested in the next step of psychological evolution in the feminine archetype (and therefore men are also affected). My discovery is that I have LIVED this since my birth, that is, I think, I know, I believe, I live is the progression of development, the last stage only recently being revealed. Thank you so much for your interest and assistance.
Writer in Need of Affirmation

Dear Writer:
Madame Olivia confesses that she doesn’t entirely understand your premise but finds the idea of enlarging on the feminine archetype very interesting. Much more importantly, if you are seized by this project then yes, you should be writing it.

Here are several bits of advice for you: 1) Write every day, and if you can’t, at least read or interact with your material. 2) Join a writing group. This is not for everybody, given the challenge of balancing what other people say with your own instincts, but Madame Olivia senses that such a group would be helpful to you. 3) Keep plugging away. As the old English saying goes, It’s dogged as does it!

Sending hopeful wishes and good writing energy your way.

Madame Olivia